Alright, so I have this best friend who is going through a semi-hard time. I understand that her circumstances aren't the best, but she's making herself way more miserable than she needs to be.

I haven't told her that, though, because I don't want her mad at me.

But now she's pushing me away and I'm not sure why. I haven't done anything at ALL.

And this boy she likes (who isn't really that great, and I warned her against) is totally using her and is now in the process of screwing her over.

And she's pushing me even farther away.

*glares at world*

I absolutely hate being in moods like this.

It seems like absolutely nothing can go right right now.

Not that anything specifically is going wrong, mind, it's just that my mind feels like an elephant is sitting on it. Like I'm being squished and suffocated, and there's nothing I can do to escape.

Even though all I'm doing is babysitting--and not really even that, all there are is Ava and Hadley, and mom and Wesley are playing with them. I'm not even in charge right now; it's my time off.

Maybe that's where the problem is. I don't do enough. Probably. That would make sense, I mean.

I just feel like I'm going crazy doing the same things over and over and over again. Nothing new; nothing exciting. I"m stuck and trapped and don't quite know how to get out for the life of me.

I don't even know anything about this new way Xanga is layed out, and I'm getting progressively more stressed as the day goes on, and for no good reason whatsoever.

Grr. I need oxygen, I think. And it's raining, so I can't even run in circles in the backyard like I've done to relieve stress in the past.

Where's my book?

Hey all. I realize I haven't updated in a while, but my holidays have been super busy, and I've been kind of stressed anyway, so just haven't really bothered.

Recently, I think I've decided that God wants me to go to ACC, and have something to do with counseling, I'm just not sure exactly what.

And if anyone saw me start crying when Miss Kelly started talking about the blue jeans, I apologize. It wasn't really the news that set me off, I was just in a super strange mood :p

Alright, so I just read this article about this girl (Megan) who met a boy (Josh) on myspace. They talked for probably about six weeks, then he all of a sudden, cut off communication with her, and started insulting her and calling her names, etc. At some point he even said the world would be better off without her. She killed herself over this.

But that isn't even the end of the story.

This boy wasn't real. One of her former friends and that girl's parents made the account to "she created Josh's profile because she wanted to gain Megan's confidence to know what Megan was saying about her own child online."

And then Megan's parents took something that they were holding for the other family, destroyed it, and told them to leave the neighborhood!

The whole article just made me mad. Everyone was acting like children, and it was just incredibly stupid.

Here's the link to the article, if you want to read it for yourself.
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/21844203/?GT1=10547